Tuesday, December 10, 2013

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My life is really hectic these days.  From my babies, to my house, to my husband, to my calling, to life in general my calendar is full ALL THE TIME.  I sometimes can't remember what day it is and sometimes I forget to eat.  

Hectic, I tell ya.

But there are moments during my day where I stop and take a look around (like Ferris Bueller told me to) and I just breath in the moment.  I stop and really look at how much my girls have changed and how big Russell is getting.  Brynn will never be 2 3/4 again.  Caroline will not have numerous holes in her mouth where teeth should be.  Russell will not fall asleep on my chest and breath his baby breaths for too much longer.  
I made the choice long ago that I wanted to stay home with my babies.  I wanted to be here for as much as I could for as long as I could.  It is the hardest job I have ever done (and I taught high school)!  There are some days were I wish I had a job to go to.  There are some moments when I can't wait until all three are in school.  And there are times when I want to keep Caroline home from school and just breath the same air.  There are moments when I honestly can't get enough of Brynn.  There are times when I get weepy thinking about Russell growing up and not being my baby anymore.  
This is the season of my life where I have my babies surrounding me, hanging off of me, filling my days.  Like the seasons, one will slowly dissolve into the other and I won't realize the change until one day I will stop and realize my house is too clean and too quiet.  But at least I will have these moments, these memories that I am creating now to keep me warm on those chilly nights.




1 comment:

Joe Average Writer said...

These are the exact reasons why I'm trying to capture glimpses of my past in narrative format. You rock!