My life is really hectic these days. From my babies, to my house, to my husband, to my calling, to life in general my calendar is full ALL THE TIME. I sometimes can't remember what day it is and sometimes I forget to eat.
Hectic, I tell ya.
But there are moments during my day where I stop and take a look around (like Ferris Bueller told me to) and I just breath in the moment. I stop and really look at how much my girls have changed and how big Russell is getting. Brynn will never be 2 3/4 again. Caroline will not have numerous holes in her mouth where teeth should be. Russell will not fall asleep on my chest and breath his baby breaths for too much longer.
I made the choice long ago that I wanted to stay home with my babies. I wanted to be here for as much as I could for as long as I could. It is the hardest job I have ever done (and I taught high school)! There are some days were I wish I had a job to go to. There are some moments when I can't wait until all three are in school. And there are times when I want to keep Caroline home from school and just breath the same air. There are moments when I honestly can't get enough of Brynn. There are times when I get weepy thinking about Russell growing up and not being my baby anymore.
This is the season of my life where I have my babies surrounding me, hanging off of me, filling my days. Like the seasons, one will slowly dissolve into the other and I won't realize the change until one day I will stop and realize my house is too clean and too quiet. But at least I will have these moments, these memories that I am creating now to keep me warm on those chilly nights.
1 comment:
These are the exact reasons why I'm trying to capture glimpses of my past in narrative format. You rock!
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